Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas...or should I be politiacally correct and say happy Holidays. I really don't understand what is wrong with saying Christmas. What truly is the christmas story? Is it some fat man that comes down the chimney in .0003splitseconds to each house to deliver presents to all the good little boys and girls? Come on. If you can belive in that why can't you believe that God blessed a virgin and sent his holy spirit upon her so that she concived the king of kings to die upon the cross and take with him our sins. There are so many historians who had doubted the truthfullness of the bible but after much research had to refute due to thier findings. If you can believe in a fat man running around in a red suit with flying reindeer that can deliver toys to all the children around the world..how much harder is it to believe that God became flesh in Christ and was born in a virgin?

Christmas shouldn't be about the presents and toys that we get. It's the time of giving and and fellowship. It's a time where families that normally run from one activity to another actually sits down together for a meal and is able to talk about thier lives and the love that they do feel for each other. It's the time that people are able to give without worrying just how much money they don't have to give or what starbucks coffee they won't be able to purchase anymore. This is truly the season of giving. Just as God gave his only son and Jesus gave up his seat upon the right hand of God for us.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son, That who ever believes in him shall recieve eternal life.

Merry Christmas!!!

Home...but not

It's so wierd being "home". I mean this is the place that i grew up and stuff but I feel like a stranger here. I don't know where I fit in. I mean am I a student just visiting or am I an adult in my family or just another kid. What are my resposnibilities around the house. What can or can't I do. It's weird. I feel more comfortable at school than i do here. That isn't right. Home should be a safe haven for me not a hostile environment. I'll work through it though. Idk. I need to get out but my parents won't let me drive even though i have two cars to choose from.

The puppy is so big and obnoxious. He is cute though. wow I am rambling. I miss my college buddies.

I went to a party with all my high school buddies the other night. It was fun but awkward at the same time. I just didn't really fit anymore. I guess it is because I have matured more and am at a different level from them. Also maybe because I wasn't around at all this year so am not really connected with any of them. Idk...my life is so messed up.

The silence is driving me mad

So because of exams we have extreme quiet hours... this means you pretty much have to as quiet as a door knob or else you will get written up. It is so hard to be quiet..I just want to scream. Then on top of it I don't have another exam untill Wednesday and I refuse to just study. That would be extremely boring. I would pretty much cry my head off. I have had times were I just went outside and talked my head of and that helped. Well not much more...So close to going home I can start to smell it.

Crazy Reaction and Awesome people

So I finally worked up the courage and told my mom about my hair. I was al ready to pull my phone away from my ear and still be able to hear her loud and clear. Suprisingly she was very calm. She did say that it was stupid but that it was my stupid desicion to deal with. Now I am slightly worried about what she will say when she actually sees it.

The pressures of this week and the end of the semseter seem to have finally caught up with me. I felt completely down and depressed. I started to think that I was not cut out for college life and that nothing good was going to happen. Thens awesome people from my hall came and talked to me and just made me feel hope again. I really don't deserve the people God sticks in my life.

Yesturday, I had to make puppy chow for the Coffee house that our hall puts on. Unfortunitally my RA who normally helps me was unable due to health. SO here I am in the kitchen struggling to make puppy chow... I am such a helpless cause in the kitchen. I have more puppy chow supplies on me than are actually being made. It was very sad. On top of that the heat on my fingers was awful because of my minor frost bite. It was still fun though.

My New Hair-do

Well, after much contemplation and thoughtfulness... Jk it was a spurr of the moment desicion, I decided to dread my hair for fun and to raise money for childeren with disabilities. With the help of my RA and a fellow hall mate it has begun. Still have to tell my mother and there is still lots of work to do but it is fun and I can't wait to see if it turns out.